Weight - 154.0lbs
Measurements:
Bust - 39.5"
Underbust - 35"
Waist - 36"
Hips - 39.5"
I've developed a crush on the local coffee shop dude. I've been going to his shop for two months now and it was only after he confessed to me that he, too, wanted to get married, did my heart go pitter pat. The problem is, he has a serious girlfriend. What is assuring is that his girlfriend is 20. He and I are both 26.
I've also decided to stop taking pre-med classes and to not go to medical school. I just wasn't getting good enough grades. My grades weren't bad; I got a B average so far, but I needed a 4.0. I could try to take a gamble and continue taking pre-med, hoping my GPA will improve and hoping that the medical school admissions committee will take pity on my and let me in, but part of me just does not want it that bad. I do want it, I want it very much, but I just don't know how to study and am not self-disciplined enough to sit and study for hours. Time to find something else to do with my life.
I bellydance and video myself dancing so I can post the videos on youtube. I recently made a video of me trying to explain how to do a certain move. I had squeezed myself into this one pair of jeans I own, a pair I owned when I weighed 20lbs less and a sarong I frequently tie around me for a loose, comfortable top. Watching myself, I looked like an egg. I am such a typical apple shape: large upper body, large tummy, short, thin legs, thin arm, short neck, big face, round head. I can fit into a size 9 jeans while my dresses are size 12 and blouses are extra-large. I look like a human candied apple.
So, with a new career directive (I just might become a nurse, instead), a crush on a hot guy, unasthetically pleasing bellydancing, and the mere fact that I am 6 months away from my 27th birthday and I want to get married and have children, I have decided to change my life around, starting with my looks.
My goal is to get to my high school weight of 120 - 125lbs. I know that 35lbs is a lot of weight to lose for someone who isn't really that heavy, but I want to be attractive again. I want to be attractive to a guy like the coffee shop guy (but not necessarily the coffee shop guy since he has a girlfriend - albiet a one who is too young for him). I want to be at a good weight so I won't be a whale when I have babies. I want to be young and thin and pretty. I feel old and I have lost my bloom. Time to prune the roses.
Starting today.
